Finally, I am Thriving.

Healing and awakening has opened my eyes to so many truths. One hard truth for me, the realization of being surrounded by so many woman who are closed off, unreceptive, they don’t ask for help, they lack vulnerability, they’re hard, suppressing all the time, constantly working, going and doing, unknowingly sabotaging in different ways that are keeping them in a constant cycle of survival. A harder truth, I was one of them. Now that I have reprogrammed so many mindsets that aligned with the struggle (yes, girl it was an entire struggle), seeing them operate in survival, is a constant reminder and reflection of the woman I use to be. It really pains me, because I’ve changed. I rest. I receive with ease. I ask for help with the belief I deserve it. I am no longer constantly going and doing, mindlessly as a way to distract from the many things I needed to go towards and work on. I cry. I release what doesn’t align with the life I am constantly creating. I am open. I am vulnerable. I flow. I am soft. I am aware of my sabotaging behaviors.

When I find myself sabotaging, leaning back into old needless survival habits, I check in. I assess. I process. I redirect myself. Girlies, old ways will linger. Waiting for you to entertain them. Just like that ex who is waiting on you to get weak and make a comeback. If I go back, I will be going back to the woman I use to be. A woman who was accomplishing while drowning. A woman who was there but rarely present. A woman who was anxious and hyper vigilant, because she did not feel safe. She didn’t feel safe in her own body. She didn’t feel safe in her mind. When I see women who are a reflection of who I use to be, I want them to feel what it is like to go from surviving to thriving. I want them to leave the constant going, doing, anxiousness, depression, worry, fear, unhealthy relationships, draining jobs and unlock the beauty of living in their natural essence. The natural essence that is their femininity, their intrinsic gifts, their power. I want to set them free. Free from a life I use to live and remember all to well.

Homegirls, I challenge you to assess your life. In what ways are you in resistance? In what ways are you distracting? Are you over worked? Are you a stranger to rest? Are there any areas in your life where you do not feel fulfilled?

Most importantly, how are you in your own way of allowing the fulfillment your mind, body and soul is longing for, to settle in and thrive?

Hard Women Hurt